Five Days in a Flash of WTF
aka the one that can easily be five years old or five hours fresh
Little letter 61, 02.10.2023
Hello October!
This week is a plain old snotty blog post. Real, raw, unplugged…
So, last week the following happened:
we got no sleep, Juliette had her usual cold cough at night malarky,
Juliette turned 5 years old,
her referral for autism became null and void, its starting over.
This is the gist of it.
I can’t begin to explain the emotions behind each experience.
Sometimes shit easily happens in succession, sometimes in mere hours, other times in days, or weeks.
On Monday, I couldn’t work due to Juliette being off sick with fever, coughing and fatigue.
On Tuesday, kept her off again and I had the doctor tell us that the spirometry test doesn’t rule out asthma yet the nurse told us a couple of weeks prior we can finally eliminate asthma as a cause for her cold-induced infections she gets at the turn of any chill in the air.
On Wednesday, baking a vegan cake on her birthday was filled with tiredness and nervousness that I’d run out of time to also clean and get organised for a few friends coming over after school.
I had no time to prepare properly as the two nights before were the worst in terms of fever, restlessness and untimely coughs.
I barely got a good moment to enjoy the fullness of her reaching age five. I didn’t even write her a card, I keep thinking I’d take the time to write something special and there we go, it didn’t happen. Mom guilt moment.
On Thursday, I had no time to absorb the call regarding her referral for autism. I was told there wasn’t actually an open case for her (yet I’ve been chasing it this whole year?!) and that our appointment in August was just a review before big school. So much for being hopeful we were getting somewhere!
On Friday, I tried to catch up with admin, work and cleaning.
On Saturday, we missed a social gathering for mamas I’d so looked forward to.
Nobody to share a glass of wine with all weekend, nobody wants to listen to me whine either, I’m pretty sure. But here I am, unapologetically.
I’ve been confused, annoyed, angry, disappointed, frustrated, exhausted and downright irritated this past week, but as I know too, this too shall pass.
In conclusion, I realise that motherhood often has these little messy surprises up its sleeve where your WHOLE week is upside down, one thing after the other and the only thing we really can do, is keep our heads up and pray it passes soon, right??!
So, tell me about your week!